Archive for August, 2005

Gherkin jerks.

I have a theory. A hypothesis, if you will. Formed yesterday during my drive home from The Evil Empire. And this is it: The size of a person’s penis is inversely proportional to the size of their SUV. Note that I didn’t say “car.” This little rule only applies to SUV’s (and OK, maybe trucks). In fact, with sports cars, the exact opposite is true (the smaller the car, the smaller the penis). And also note that I didn’t say “man.” I think we’ve all met a few women who have got to be packing heat.

What proof do I have of my belief? Well, none. I’m going on instinct here, people. I mean, what possible purpose does an earth-fucking Hummer serve, other that to help the driver to overcompensate for the baby gherkin you know he’s jerkin’? Now, am I worried that I’ll alienate a whole population of men with my unscientific observations? Hardly. These are the same guys who can’t pry themselves away from their online fantasy football leagues long enough to attend company meetings or update their timesheets.

Requiem for a tampon.

OK, this is gross, but it must be written. Because I am sure this has happened to at least one other person out there. Anyone? Anyone?

My dog, a smelly old weiner dog with rancid breath and wretched farts, snatched a used tampon from my bathroom garbage can (yes, it has a lid), ATE it, and then POOPED IT OUT in our backyard. If that doesn’t blow out the disgust-o-meter, I don’t know what does.

As the action went down, I watched on curiously through the kitchen sliders. All said, it was better than HBO on Sunday night. He spent the better half of an hour trying to pinch it off, tail spastically jacking it out like a old-fashioned water pump. A more compassionate dog owner might have gone out there to help expunge it. But imagine what THAT would’ve looked like. I love my dog, but not enough to dig a dirty tampon out of his blowhole. Even if I were inclined to perform said sphincter surgery, what would I use? Two sticks? A pair of tongs? I think not. Instead, I let nature take its course. If he didn’t make it through this ordeal, then he wasn’t meant to. I’d just have to chalk it up to doggy Darwinism.

Well, he eventually passed the putrid little plugger. Smack dab in the middle of our backyard, which is smack dab in the middle of suburbia. Before I could get out there and scoop it up with the pooper scooper, my husband ran over it with the lawn mower and POOF! A feather-dusting of white fluffy tampon particles fluttered down from the sky. I imagine few tampons experience such a dramatic exit. For most, it’s a simple burial at sea.

If I had been inclined to recite an obit, it wouldn’ve gone something like this. “Farewell old friend. You did your job — passing not through one orifice, but two. And for that, you get the grandest send-off of all. Asses to asses. Dust to dust. Be off, you nasty thing, you. Return to the earth, the cotton fields from whence you came. For your work here is done.”

Measure of a man.

I watched my husband care for our sick little boy last night. He rubbed his feverish little head. He gently bathed him after a violent puke of blueberry muffins, curdled milk and Children’s Tylenol. He poured cool water over his feverish, goosebumped body with the little fishy cup. He listened to his sick, senseless moaning. He gathered up the soiled clothes, put them in a trash bag and hauled them downstairs to be washed. All was done with such patience and love. There was no complaining about the situation, or concern that the night’s events were keeping us from our beloved Sunday night HBO (OK, we do have Tivo, but still).

We’ve been with each other for almost 15 years. Never is he more beautiful than when he is knee-deep in fatherhood, caring for our son. I believe that when we’re 80, these will be the moments I remember.

Bandaged in red tape.

It’s been one week since I left my old job, and I now feel strong enough to talk about what has been the most psychologically challenging work experience of my life. For behind the walls of that company lurked the most maudlin cast of characters. People who simply could not work anywhere else, because no one else would have them.

My time there might have been funny, had I not needed to collaborate with these kooks on a daily basis. Two years with these people, and the following is all I remember of them. They may have said other things in this time. But honestly, I cannot remember what it would’ve been, since I spent my days drowning in the constant flow of idiocy:

“I know I shouldn’t talk religion at work, but would you like to go to The Passion of the Christ with me and my church group?” (This, as said by the same person who wanted me to sign a petition banning gay marriage.)

“People cannot tell the difference between a well-designed web site and one that is not well-designed. People only care about information and functionality.”

“As of today, I am going to be your creative director.” (This was spoken by the poorly dressed man detailed below. This was the day I started looking for a new job.)

“Does my snowman sweater clash with my Santa earrings?”

“You’re spending too much time making your work good. Our clients don’t want good work.”

“If you have any work that needs to be done, you shouldn’t be taking lunch breaks.”

“You want to concept some ideas? Fine. You’ve got one hour. Go.” (And he proceded to TIME me.)

If only there was a better way to capture the ineptness, the ignorance, the stupidity. The saddest part is, most of these quotes are from one person — my boss. What a fucking lunatic. Since he only went to Super Cuts once every 4-5 months, he actually had more hair on his neck than on his head. A waterfall of whiskers flowed out of his nose, which meant that his boogers and his food were never more than a strand of hair away from each other. Which leads me to another point — TO ALL THE MEN OUT THERE, JUST KNOW THAT MOUSTACHES LOOK GOOD ON NO ONE. THEY MAKE YOU LOOK LIKE A CHILD MOLESTOR.

His lack of judgment also extended south. Some of the more memorable wardrobe choices included shoes with soles so thin, they had molded themselves like Play-Doh to the shape of his foot. He also fancied short-sleeve, thread-bare oxford shirts, usually worn with a stained polyester Mickey Mouse tie and navy blue Docker-type pants. The wear-pattern of his wallet was solidly imprinted on the back pocket. And the smell — everywhere he went was this aroma of rotten powdered donuts and unwashed hair. I remember having to use his stinky old car to deliver materials to a client one day. I opened the door and was instantly bathed in his essence, which also had baked into the upolstery. Like the Shroud of Turin, his shape was visibly etched into the seat.

Then there was my art director, who minutes before a creative presentation would say to me, “I’m not going to have any layouts for you to present. I’m not done. I just wasn’t feeling the concepts.” Or my office mate, who told her boss that I told her my salary, and that she wanted to earn the same as me (she was never so much as reprimanded for this). On most days, I felt like the only sane person in the asylum. Calling everyone crazy would’ve been futile.

I’m now back at my old job. The corporateness and fakeness and pomp that originally drove me away is now my salve. I can deal with mundane meetings and ridiculous rules. In fact, I now revel in them. It has finally dawned on me that deliberateness of these practices protects us all from individual idiocies and whims. But give me a few months. I’m sure I’ll be bitching about these things in due time. But right now, I am bandaged in red tape and I am healing.

Cube envy.

What is it about other people’s cubicles that make them look neat, orderly and cheerful? I could fill mine with yellow daisies, babbling fountains and kittens, and it would still be a black hole. If I could only figure out where to place my family pictures and my office toys (you know, the ones no one ever touches, but nevertheless declare that I am NOT a boring, irrelevant old fuck), my cube might be half-way livable.

Note to self: I need to go shopping this weekend and get a new plant, new photo frames, and maybe a beta fish. Perhaps I could dig that framed Ansel Adams out of the basement. If I can effectively mask the walls of my cube and make things more homey (and that’s homey as in home-like, not home boy), it will surely mean I am not really at work. I wonder if the facilities department would frown upon a beaded doorway curtain and a lava lamp. My Despair, Inc. calendar probably wouldn’t go over that well, either.